Love. I often wonder to myself, why I can’t get it right with you. I’ve been down that road a time or two, and I always seem to get lost. Why has that happened? A destination so easy to find, however I always end up lost? Maybe because I was looking for it, and it was always “there.”
Love where are you? Why have you been so hard to find? I swear I can’t find “it” with a flashlight at night, if I tried. I have stared you in the face for years, but gave it all up looking for something else. What the hell was I thinking?
Could it be that while staring it in its face it didn’t resemble what my perception of “it” was? How did I not recognize it? It’s often times that you look for the very same thing that’s right under your nose. I didn’t recognize it because it didn’t look the way I pictured it.
I need you to come down! Come down from that place of hiding. Come out from the darkness. I’m tired of going in there to look for you. The way I’m feeling right now I need light. I need light to shine around me to help me see clearly.
There is no reason why you should hide from me. Wait, maybe it’s me. Maybe it’s the way I’ve looked at things. Maybe it’s my perception. I no longer want to go into hiding to find anything. I don’t want to be concealed from anything anymore. I don’t want to go looking for you anymore.
Love is essential
The very thing that is necessary for all living things. Love. A word so strong that it can stand alone. A word, to me, that can be considered a noun. Love. Where have you been these past few years? Why do I still yearn for your presence? Why do I still have a desire for that? I’m starting to think that Love, doesn’t Love me. It just can’t. Why are you being kept from me? What have I done so wrong?
Today, a day that I will never forget, just makes me realize that Love does come and go. It is something promised, but never guaranteed. Love can come from anyone. Often times it comes from strangers more so than the ones you do love. For me, it feel that I have to pay for it or show that I’m worthy to receive. Why though?
What I need right Now
I could really use a dose of Love right now. Especially today. I’m talking that genuine kind of Love. The one that would give up anything for you. The Love that would go to bat for you. That kinda Love that puts you first. A Love that prays for you. A Love that won’t hide you, but will boast about you. The Love that will give you endearing forehead kisses (I love those). A Love that can just hold and comfort you and want nothing in return. That Love.
The true lesson on Love
I guess for now I will be those things for me. I will Love me until that Love is genuinely sent my way. I’ve gotten in my way before and it caused me to arrive at this place in my life. I finally began loving me.
I can only learn from that road recently travelled and use mg GPS (God Positioning System) next time. Until then I’ll Love me the way I want to Loved. They say you get what you give, so I’m putting some loving vibes into the Universe.
If you are where I am, start by focusing on loving yourself and Love will come. It took me this long to figure it out. What’s your take on Love and where are you on this journey?